My beautifully unruly way - I like that descriptor for what I am making up today to be.I could barely roll myself out of bed today, I was so exhausted. It's also a bad habit when I'm doing laundry - I do my sheets last and always end up having a night where there are no sheets on my bed. It's so easy to cocoon myself in my super awesome duvet and drift off to la la land, making it that much harder to wake up in the morning. It's so cold out there, and so warm in here, so busy out there and so calm in here. This is the cold and chaotic story I tell myself every morning of what will happen as soon as my toe touches the ground.
Today's chaos included three review classes (the last of the semester), and a dentist appointment - all of which, unfortunately, do not give me a lot of time for studying. I was freaking out this morning. But I found an alternative - I will stay home from my review classes. They're not going to tell me anything so fundamentally important that I will fail my exams if I don't hear it, and I'm in a position where I will pass (barely, mind) if I choose not to show up for my exams anyway.
At home, the tea is free, the only one judging me for sneezing into my elbow is my dog, and if I feel the need to bend into down-dog after a few hours of being hunched over my notes - I can. I could absolutely do this during a review class to, but something tells me that it wouldn't go over too well.
I put myself in a hard position though. If I stay home, what am I missing? If I go to class, how much time am I wasting? These are the stories in my head this morning, this is what is eating at me.
So, I go into the kitchen, make some tea, and break out into down-dog in my kitchen in the hopes of some miraculous, yoga inspired, answer to my stress. My necklace smacked me in the face.
It's from energy muse, and the basis of this necklace is that it will provide me with energy, endurance, motivation, balance, wisdom, and a positive attitude. It's called Flow. Now, I'm cynical about the fact that these stones are going to give me anything other than a pretty necklace - but it does serve as a reminder when it hits you right in your face. I can flow anywhere, I will do whatever needs to be done and I can do it anywhere - school be damned!
